i need help

for some reason i felt loneliness i haven't felt since my depression years in the 8th grade!

Randomness!
ya know, i thought senior year would be fun and stuff, but its plain boring, i just go to hang with my friends.
Getting into college sucks! Its a lot of stress! I'm not sure if i want to go to a local college around my town
i want to go up north, like far away... although my mom doesn't want me to leave, but i do... i want to get away, i need to get away, i don't think i can handle another 2 years with my parents, siblings and some people around me.
Plus i don't think i could fulfill my potential if i stay where i am, and i won't be motivated enough, i also need to release my independent needs.
Besides there is a college that i really want to get into, its far but not to far... Its great though... I wanna go there, i hope i get accepted >.<

ya know, i got sick last week. it was horrible, i wanted to die

but anyways my parents wanted to take care of me, but i didn't want them to... i don't know why though...
but i learned something new about myself! (I've only begun learning about myself)
It's that i HATE being taken care of! I simply don't want help, only when i ask for it.

:<

i get scared when i play resident evil... I'll stick to pokemon

someone text me right now, which is weird, cause i don't talk to him anymore
what to do? what to do?

dude, i'm seriously bored right now!
someone recommend me a manga or anime...
ugh i guess i should go do scholarship stuff, or work on the school yearbook :<
or read a book for my english class...Dude i gonna say this right now, but i hope he will never read this, which i doubt he would cause he doesn't go here on Da...
Mr. Everett is weird but cool... and a nerd lolololololololololo
no but hes really cool and smart, he's a teacher so of course he should be smart
but that book review he made us do, was not cool... >.< i didn't like that assignment, don't know why though...
he likes star trek


well anyways bye